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♥ is this a bad topic?! >< what can i do to improve --------------------------------------… i sat at a lonely desk surrounded by everyone's conservation. i tried to concentrate on my math worksheet, but my hands kept shaking to every word i tried to write. little drop of tears start falling onto my paper, but i hold it in. i could feel the laughter and the tauntings of the other students. "keeping everything bottled up inside, we suffer the most pain". the times i spent in junior high school were the most painful times i ever endured, but it taught me many valuable lessons i needed to survive in life. i was always the quiet one in the classroom which made me an easy target to bullying. my peers were mean, and i felt as if i didn't have any friends in my classroom. i often been called "loser" or "stupid" but i never stood up for myself, i just shrugged it off ignorantly. i didn't raise up my voice, becuase i was scared. i was prone to stuttering a lot when i speak, i feared being ridiculed more if i did stood up for myself. i've seen bullying on television, but i never knew it would happen to me and it would hurt that bad. it even took a stagger on my grades. i couldn't concentrate on my work after reflecting every painful day i encountered. i never told my teachers or my parents becuase i was embarassed, i wanted to to feel normal. the only source of comfort was my writer's journal from my english class which i pour out my freewrite my feelings daily making me feel comfort to expose my problems out. another source of comfort were my friends in the other classes which i see them everyday in the lunchroom and when i walk home afterschool. to me, they were the greatest people i had in school in where we shared conservations and laughters, something i couldn't do with the kids in my own class. the incident that ruined my life the most was in 7th grade. a memory that let me down to shame when i told my classmate that "i hated everyone" because i couldn't take the tauntngs any longer. she began to take it as an insult and ordered her friends to push me down the hallways, and taunt me even more. eighth grade was the most life changing year of my life. i requested a change to a classroom with my friends, and bravely spoke to my guidance about the bullying problems. she was sympathetic but sometimes i wish i could stand up for myself again. i had a great english teacher who makes us do writing journals. "sometimes, you should have more confidence in yourself" she says. i began to do drastically well by the end of eighth grade after expressing the burden i carried within me all these years. i began to do many community service, indulge in my hobbies of designing and writing, and apperciating everyday in life. i feel like helping others was my duty like how i needed help coping with bullying. i indulge every moment of life deeply knowing that i don't have a burden in me anymore. when i graduated, junior high school really meant nothing, but it was by far the most life changing experience i ever had. my years of high school have became more free, and i deal with many new experiences, good and bad. everytime i have a bad day, i contemplate on the junior high school days. i let out a smile knowing that i got through this phase and things could be much worse in life.i think i'm depressed, help?
♥ i think i'm depressed. i've thought this for a good few years now. when i was about 13 years old, my mum and dad divorced, and this is when i first realized things were changing. i was quite fat as a kid, but when this happened i just, stopped eating, lost my appetite for years. i also got into a bad crowd at school, and started smoking, just normal cigarettes, at the age of 14. i've tried weed a few times, but that's never been a big issue. then i got into my first long-term relationship when i was 15, was with him for just under a year, and we broke up. also, at around the same time, my step-grandad got really ill and put into a old peoples home, which really worried me. i had to see a child psychiatrist but nothing was done really apart from counseling. just lately, i've split up with my latest boyfriend, and we've been together for a year. this is even harder as he was near enough living at my house, saw him every single day, went on holiday together and its just horrible not seeing him as much as i used to, also, since i've left school, i've lost a lot of my friends, so i don't go out as much. my mum suffers from depression, and she has to take anti-depressants. i think this also has something to do with it as i live with her and there is always a negative atmosphere in the house, which is also getting me down. i've been to the doctors and they've told me that they'll sort some more counceling out for me, but i haven't heard anything back from them yet and its been over 2 months. i'm scared they're just putting it down to hormones, because i feel its so much more than that. i feel horrible all the time, i feel sick, i feel unwanted and there is no purpose for me to be here, i'm just a waste of time and oxygen. please help me, am i depressed? i'm also 17, 18 in a couple of months right now, just so you know also, i think i'm turning to drink recently. normally, i never drink, maybe a few drinks once a month, if that. but this past week, i've gone out and drank one day, sat at home on my own drinking another day, and i feel like i need more my child misbehaves at daycare!?
♥ my daughter (3) started at a new daycare a month ago. she was with a family member before this, however i wanted her to get more exposure to other children. she is really shy and independant. well getting her up in the morning and getting her ready for daycare has been a nightmare to say the least, dropping her off as well, she cries and cries for me. she has never been the type to cry when i leave her anywhere. shes also spent much of last year at a montessori school, however it was too expensive and we can't afford it, but she did great there. she is very well behaved at home in the evenings and weekends, so what gives? my husband picks her up and her teacher tells him she has been bad all day. doesnt want to share, wants to do everything on her own and has a temper. i don't know what to do!? he wants to take her out, but she's been there only a month and i dont really have any other option as far as childcare goes. unless i send her back to montessori which costs about as much as a mortgage payment! help!!.